for looking out for me. for taking care of me. for being so kind and thoughtful. for being concerned and giving and sweet (i hope you got my note back). for sharing honest feelings, unabashedly. for welcoming us into your home when we had none of our own. for loving the things i love to make. for supporting me. for always checking in on me to see how i’m doing. for giving me such an awesome opportunity, especially during these tough times. for making me dinner. for inviting me out. for making me laugh. for making me smile. for cheering me up. for existing in my world. for thinking about me, instead of forgetting. for forgiving me and my faults. for thinking so highly of me. for those hugs. for reminding me where one’s real worth lies. for trying so hard when it’s so hard for you. for believing in me.
doin my thang and tryin not to stress out from impending financial doom thoughts :^DDD
I GOT TO DRAW TWO LOVELYCUTIES THANKS TO PSEUDONYMJONES :^D! one of them being himselfs n__n reallythough i am always baffled as to why people who create excellentamazing stuffs would ever want me to draw for them. cause i mean, you got allthepower your fingertips YANNO? SERIOUSLY, GO CHECK OUT HIS MADETHINGS THEY ARE GR8 :^DDD!
and obviously, i’m still doing draws for $$ so please consider commissioning me! \n__n/
commissions will be open while i look for a new job (i just recently moved back to philly :B), so if you’ve ever wanted something from me now’s the time to get it!
$45 for each character, paypal only (sent in USD please), payment up front — please send me an email prior to any payment with references to your character/person/creature and a short description of their personality V: these are being inked traditionally and colored digitally, if you want me to send you the original drawing through snailmails just lemme know and we can work something out! n__n
ps i’d like to discuss things fully through email (sunbrineATgmailDOTcom) because it’s the most reliable :^D
instagroodles from the past month or so V: i haven’t been drawing much because of the movingstuff but now im all settled in and can get dem pens goin again whilst i look for a new jorb VVV: that first one there is some littlething i made for the door above the peephole! so visiting folk have somethingfun to lookat while they wait for me to answer the door :^D
for some sweetbutt customers at werk V: TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY :DDDD
ihope you don’t mind if i make this a public reply thingmo cause ithink maybe this might interest other people that have been hanging around since them days too! :B (send me a note or something if it makes you feel weird or anything — i can never tell if i should be responding to things privately or what and it makes my head all fuzzled @__@)
BUT UHM WOW you are sweet as piecake #__# and i am veryalot happy that my self and selfrelatedstuff had a positive influence on you in some ways! i am pretty sure i don’t really have a following like you think i do though :B there were good chunks of weeks/months/years where i didnot come online at all (much less post art i was barely creating to begin with) for various reasons i won’t get into @_@ so alot of people kind of lost interest and stopped waiting around and forgot about me and the things i might make becausewell DANG there is a ton of awesome stuff to see and ponder over and absorb and a person only has so much time in a day to devour it all, you know? so it only makes sense, if i’m not around often enough and not creating often enough then eyes will stop peeking round my corner of the internets often enough V:
some people are still interested in the things i put out there, sure, but i think alot of the people following me now are newerfolk ALTHOUGH I HAVE NO REAL WAY OF KNOWING XD i’m kind of angry at myself for not being able to create more during those times but mostly because whoknows what i couldhave been conjuring up, it’s just timewasted for me concerning artistic growth too MY BRAIN ACHES JUST THINKING ABOUT IT XDD uhm, but i don’t worry alot about those pastdays because i feel like if i can make honest, good, interesting work then there will eventually be more people who want to see it. which is why i love making things somuch !_! imean the process is great too, but if i was the only person on this planet i’m unsure how much i’d draw and color and paint. it’s communication and sharing, and i’m really glad i can talk to people that way and it makes me all warm in my center because something good swells there when my mind really dwells on that place of “make stuff with hands share people good happy yes” <>__<>
thinking about art as a job is kind of hard for me and it makes me feel certainthings that are hard to describe. i always feel very awkward when discussing prices for commissions or figuring out how things SHOULD be priced, or even when skirting on the subject of how to make things i enjoy making that are true to the person i am while also not starving and being homeless. i currently am trying to juggle dayjorb with comehomeartjobthings but it’s super tiring and sometimes i’m so physically sore and mentally wipedout that i can’t get much done. i wish i could devote more of my time to the things i love but i am really bad at figuring this stuff out Y__Y WHICH IS OBVIOUS PBTBBT. i definitely don’t do much reaching out commissionwise, and am lucky as heckall to be getting anything coming my way at all. thankfully, there are some lovelyfolk who dig my stuff enough to recommend it to others or to want some for themselves.
—I HAVE HAD THISMUCH SITTING IN MY DRAFTS HALF FINISHED FOR WEEKS NOW SO I SHOULD PROLLY FINISH IT UP YANNO?
i will close with somethings that bring me peace (: DRAWING MAKING DOING. sharing smiles and laughter and meaningful conversation. reading a good book or comic, drowing in brilliant animation. seeing people grow and learn and change for the better. realizing -i- have grown, learned, changed for the better in some way. petting and scratching animals. petting some people too! n__n writing down thoughts that are stuck inmy head. cleaning and organizing precious and useful possessions while giving away those no longer necessary in my life. animal crossing. the color yellow, currently of the #f8ff87 persuasion. nature, cityscape, but youknow, drawing mostly. prolly cause it’s what my hands were madefor. WELL, what i decided they were made for, anyway ☆≡\n__n/≡☆
ps, art school is not silly of you, youshould do what is best and right for you and those things are different for everyone. so no sillys. goods and meaningfuls and greats (: